I mean. if you don’t have a chance to speak English by find someone who speak English. just let this mind go. 

here the thing. I discovered that I try to put myself out there and talk to someone in English after I’ve already get myself good enough. 

if you just get started in English leaning. because you don’t have that foundation in older to respond and react when someone who speak to you in English. so I think in other hand that this is an good thing

we don’t have to risk ourself out there where we don’t understand what was being said. we can listen before we write, we can write before we speak. 

I don’ discouraging people from speak up more with anyone who speak English . it just  things that we can do first. we could good enough before we go into conversation